Hello! My name is Rhiannon and I am a ...

Hello! My name is Rhiannon and I am a ...

WORRIER!

Not your everyday run of the mill worrier.  I am your intense worrier. I worrier about what might happen, or what might not happen.  I run through every single worst case scenario and sometimes on things that really are not that big of a deal.  And yet I worry.

I'm not sure I can every fully quench my nature, but I am allowing God to work in me, and help me with my worry problem...

Psalm 55:22
Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.

1 Peter 5:7
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

And so I pray, and I try to relax and I try to be less of a spaz...

Why Doesn't God Work For Me?

Ever go to pray and ask God for a list of things you need to deal with?  Ever sit back and wonder why God isn't answering a prayer?

Here is the thing... God answers every prayer.  Just not always in the way we want it answered.  The not seeing the big pictures we miss the fact that it has been answered.

Maybe what we want isn't in our best interest. Maybe God has another plan, a better plan, and if he gave us what we wanted then what he had in mind could never come to be.

I am guilty of this.  I am guilty of pleading with God... "if you do ____ for me, then I'll ----(fill in promise of more feverent spiritual activity)---".

We don't need to beg and plead with God.  We merely need to come to Him in faith (Hebrews 11:1), and trust that whatever answer God gives is the best.

God is not mr. fix it in the sky.  We are to go to him with our problems, and we are to expect him and trust him to see us through whatever the situation may be.  But he is not in heaven saying "yes mame, yes sir, as you wish..."

He is the creator, the author and perfector of life.  He doesn't work for us, we were created for HIM.

Prayer is necessary. Prayer is effective.  But when we stop expecting God to work for us, stop expecting everything to be our way and trust that God's way is best, then prayer has a meaningful impact on our lives.

Light the Fire!!

I am active at my church.  I teach children's church, I teach women's bible study group, I help with the music ministry, and I head up the maintaince on the church's website.

I do all the things i'm suppose to spiritually, but i've been really questioning if my passion is there.  It makes me wonder am I doing what  I am suppose to do merely because I am suppose to be doing it and not because of an unquenchable desire to please my LORD and savior.

Where is the passion I use to have?  Where is the fire for my LORD?  I love serving God in any ways he calls me to, but i don't want to just serve him.  I want to know him.  I want to be able to feel his presence even when life is at it's most hectic.  I want prayer to be so comfortable again that it feels like a conversation.  I want to be so excited about what God is doing in my life and in the lives of those around me that I can't stop myself from talking about it with EVERYONE not just those I see at church.

I don't want to need to approach people about God, I want my life to shine so brightly for him that others can't help but ask what is different in my life.

I remember when I had that.  I remember in highschool being asked to leave a conversation because they wanted to tell a joke they knew the "church girl" wouldn't like.  Many would consider that rude.  I loved it. One, they respected my boundries and my beliefs and they worked around it to accomidate theirs.  Two, they saw something different in me that made them think twice about what they were doing.

I'm not sure I'm that same person, but that's someone I want to be.

I think over the rest of this month that is something I will focus on in my prayer and study times asking God to reignite my passion, to set my faith on fire!