I am active at my church. I teach children's church, I teach women's bible study group, I help with the music ministry, and I head up the maintaince on the church's website.
I do all the things i'm suppose to spiritually, but i've been really questioning if my passion is there. It makes me wonder am I doing what I am suppose to do merely because I am suppose to be doing it and not because of an unquenchable desire to please my LORD and savior.
Where is the passion I use to have? Where is the fire for my LORD? I love serving God in any ways he calls me to, but i don't want to just serve him. I want to know him. I want to be able to feel his presence even when life is at it's most hectic. I want prayer to be so comfortable again that it feels like a conversation. I want to be so excited about what God is doing in my life and in the lives of those around me that I can't stop myself from talking about it with EVERYONE not just those I see at church.
I don't want to need to approach people about God, I want my life to shine so brightly for him that others can't help but ask what is different in my life.
I remember when I had that. I remember in highschool being asked to leave a conversation because they wanted to tell a joke they knew the "church girl" wouldn't like. Many would consider that rude. I loved it. One, they respected my boundries and my beliefs and they worked around it to accomidate theirs. Two, they saw something different in me that made them think twice about what they were doing.
I'm not sure I'm that same person, but that's someone I want to be.
I think over the rest of this month that is something I will focus on in my prayer and study times asking God to reignite my passion, to set my faith on fire!
I do all the things i'm suppose to spiritually, but i've been really questioning if my passion is there. It makes me wonder am I doing what I am suppose to do merely because I am suppose to be doing it and not because of an unquenchable desire to please my LORD and savior.
Where is the passion I use to have? Where is the fire for my LORD? I love serving God in any ways he calls me to, but i don't want to just serve him. I want to know him. I want to be able to feel his presence even when life is at it's most hectic. I want prayer to be so comfortable again that it feels like a conversation. I want to be so excited about what God is doing in my life and in the lives of those around me that I can't stop myself from talking about it with EVERYONE not just those I see at church.
I don't want to need to approach people about God, I want my life to shine so brightly for him that others can't help but ask what is different in my life.
I remember when I had that. I remember in highschool being asked to leave a conversation because they wanted to tell a joke they knew the "church girl" wouldn't like. Many would consider that rude. I loved it. One, they respected my boundries and my beliefs and they worked around it to accomidate theirs. Two, they saw something different in me that made them think twice about what they were doing.
I'm not sure I'm that same person, but that's someone I want to be.
I think over the rest of this month that is something I will focus on in my prayer and study times asking God to reignite my passion, to set my faith on fire!
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